Checking in before leaving again

I've been away for quite some time I don't even know what all to say so much has happened from me becoming completely single and losing all of my so called friends to me getting abused n having to realize that my life is more important than all the love and connection in the world. I am so tired of being alone though and that is hard and I know why and how I could justify staying in an abusive relationship. I am almost a senior...yay! Hopefully I can pass all of my classes and get onto the next hurdle in life. I do miss my ex something fierce especially on days when I'm bored and all alone and my mind is wandering...smh well I got to go 2 papers n 2 tests coming up so TT4N!