Jealousy is my weakness!

I know its not good to be jealous but I just can't help it. I see things I want and I never get them. I hear people talk about the great men/women in their lives the way things are going good for them and gosh darn it I want things to be different, to be better! I want the money a car a nice TV and a good man in my life. I have a house that I will keep the taxes up on no matter what but sometimes I want a little more. I would like to have a man in my life. I want a new TV and TV stand and things like that sometimes it feels like I'm stuck in limbo. I know this is horrible and I should be happy for others cause its like my cousin has a man in her life that's wonderful to her and her son that's not even his, and my friend has a boyfriend that does the same for her son not only that but she has a nice mom and stepdad and a nice brother too. Like for her birthday they are getting her a wii and maybe a TV for my birthday I barely get anything. I can't even get help from my brother and dad on getting a car the one thing I need aside from that I pay my own bills and live my life I do things for myself and my children by myself. I am honestly happy for my family and friends, but when will things look up for me? I just want to do well and stop struggling and feeling unloved because these feelings make me want to give up on life itself! Well all that aside hopefully I will have a new car soon I will post pictures. TT4N!